sara (they/she)<p>I've been watching a lot of <a href="https://c.im/tags/TimeLoop" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>TimeLoop</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/Films" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Films</span></a> lately with my wife. Just watched Everything Everywhere All At Once, Palm Springs, & The Map of Tiny Perfect Things. I've been hyper fixated on time loops & <a href="https://c.im/tags/QuantumPhysics" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>QuantumPhysics</span></a> and <a href="https://c.im/tags/multiverse" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>multiverse</span></a> and just having fun thinking and imagining. I love <a href="https://c.im/tags/SciFi" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SciFi</span></a>. And E.E.A.A<br>O is now my favorite film ever, hands down. </p><p>So, right now as I am laying in bed thinking about how difficult it is to live with <a href="https://c.im/tags/mecfs" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>mecfs</span></a> and wondering if I will I ever feel 'healthy' again, it hit me -- how living with an <a href="https://c.im/tags/AcquiredDisability" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AcquiredDisability</span></a> or chronic illness is kind of like living in a time loop? </p><p>The days go by so slowly, but somehow months and years are over in a blur and I can't remember them at all. Much of the same happens each day. I have little choice in what I can actually do. It feels neverending. And I yearn to return to The Before. While not knowing if it'll ever be possible to get there.</p><p>Yoinks!</p><p> <a href="https://c.im/tags/EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnce" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnce</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/MapOfTinyPerfectThings" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MapOfTinyPerfectThings</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/PalmSprings" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>PalmSprings</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/spoonies" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>spoonies</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/SpoonieLife" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SpoonieLife</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/disabled" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>disabled</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/pwme" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>pwme</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/pwlc" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>pwlc</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/fblc" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>fblc</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/LongCovid" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>LongCovid</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/LongHauler" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>LongHauler</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/InMyFeels" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>InMyFeels</span></a></p>