Rachel McDove<p>Had a decent day, despite it staring with a dog shite on the rug. Spent ages cleaning it up, but still did my morning short story - 'On The Banks Of The River Lex' by N K Jemisin, really enjoyed that.</p><p>Took Monstro out as usual. Then did some studying! I'm doing a wee course in Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT), mostly for my own wellbeing and interest.</p><p>I also added a thousand words to my Star Trek book. A bunch of it was quotes, but a lot of it my own words. I'm so happy with how much I've gotten written on that recently.</p><p>I've been here before, feeling better and excited about the future, then getting tired and close to burned out again. I'm scared it'll all go away. And I'm scared my fear of losing it will taint this good place I'm in. So, I'm trying to focus on just enjoying feeling this way for however long it lasts, and doing what I can to balance it all so burnout stays in the past.</p><p>We had leftover curry from last night, which I added steamed broccoli to. What has become of me‽ A few years ago I could NEVER have imagined doing something so nourishing! Again, being happy about it in the here and now and not wondering What It All Means ™️</p><p>I also knitted two wee snails, one purple and pink for me and the other orange and red and yellow for my wife. I'm so happy to be enjoying knitting again! I tried to make a living from it for a few years. I sold a fair amount of stuff, but never made much money, and lost my hobby in the process. I wasn't sure if I'd ever enjoy it again. Turns out, yeah, I am, I'm so grateful.</p><p>It's nice to feel on an upswing after years of burnout and trauma therapy. I've been meditating, practicing yoga, even doing a few wee workouts. And I'm working out for my health, for my ageing carcass, not (just) worrying about my size and weight for once. </p><p>Things are far from perfect, I'm still tired a lot. I'm still in the "It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better" stage of trauma counselling. Still learning to deal with my autism, triggers, and the impact of trauma.</p><p>But things are WAY better than they've been for ages. And that's pretty damn awesome! </p><p>Live long and prosper, my friends 🖖</p><p><a href="https://beige.party/tags/BetterDays" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>BetterDays</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/GoodDay" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>GoodDay</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/AutisticBurnoutRecovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AutisticBurnoutRecovery</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/BurnoutRecovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>BurnoutRecovery</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/Autistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Autistic</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/AutisticAdult" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AutisticAdult</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/CPTSD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>CPTSD</span></a> <a href="https://beige.party/tags/Knitter" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Knitter</span></a></p>